Chapter20: Nothing To Lose

Nothing To Lose  [Dante]  There's a feminine saying about men being scum. I don't disagree, but from where I stand, there are different breeds of male scum.  There are the weak ones—the spineless cowards who cling to their fathers' names like life rafts, drowning in privilege they never earned.  The poor ones—fools who think their fists can change their fate, swinging at the world like cornered animals.  Then there are the ambitious ones—schemers who smile in your face while sharpening the knife they'll sink into your spine.  And then there's me—a combination of all of the above, or maybe something entirely different. Something worse.  But I don't pretend to be what I’m not. I don't hide behind morals or false promises and I live my life as freely as I need to. Because at the end of the day, the only thing bigger than my ego is my dick.  And both have ruined lives—just in different ways.  ***  The file in front of me was a mess of numbers, percentages, names—meaningless distractions. I